Heart-Diving, or Fishing for Desire

     "Water Shows the Hidden Heart" by Irish Singer Enya is a gorgeous song with ravishingly haunting words that move me. Even more, the name of the song moves me. Water shows the hidden heart.
     On the surface, water reflects our hearts. Many Witches use the surface of water for scrying and other forms of divining as a means to gaze upon past and future, asking for dreams to be revealed, or for the

power of All-That-Is to show the heart-deep Witch their true love. And then we take the plunge. Plunging the surface, we dive into ourselves, swimming in our own souls, our own divinities, and the emotions which lead us to it.
     As a 20 year old man, I face a time in my life where I am honoured to ask myself, What do I really want? As a Witch, I can no longer ignore this question. This is my path now. I was warned about becoming more myself. And yet this is the deepest human desire of all the race of humans. And why the warning, you may be asking? A warning was ensured because once you swim towards your desire, there is no swimming back upstream, even with all the wisdom of a salmon. Or perhaps the wisdom of the salmon is to go against our overculture and swim up your own passion-made stream.
Either way, it is a laborious, daunting, and yet liberating way to go, an offering of All-That-Is to each and every one of us in its own unique fashion. It is a precious gift to be able to tread towards the "want" and the "need" in their holy union, a gift we are granted through diligence, a gift we never want to let go of. Nor should we. The gift of a life with desire trod is something we should all cherish. And though sometimes we may decide to swim up or down a different stream, sooner or later our heart will yearn for that enlivening journey of swimming in the flow of passion.
     Knowing what we really want means asking our heart what it desires. For some, this is no easy task. It may feel overwhelming to admit to desire. It is a process of not only asking the question pertaining to our desire, but also of then descending into the metaphysical state of water (our emotions) and swimming around in it, submerged in our very real, very tangibly, humanistic sense of emotions, causing a stir within our very beings. Does it sound comfortable now?
     For others, this task is as easy as taking a conscious breath. It takes practice. And even then, the task

of asking our hearts what we truly desire whilst swimming at their depths still does not always invoke ease. Yet I have found that the product of this work is always long lost treasure much cherished.
     I recognize that my life tends to be more delivering when I ride the current of unveiling. Again, this is not easy. Work is accounted for. Sometimes we must offer the tides a sacrifice from parts of ourselves which no longer serve our will, releasing unneeded weight in order to swim through our passion. Sometimes we must release things in our lives which cause mass amounts of resistance against swimming along the flow of what it is we really want, the whirlpool that thrashes us here and about, and sucking us down.
     But this doesn't mean, "I want this and this other thing is getting in the way. I'll release it then -- goodbye!" This massive whirlpool is in the way for a reason. Be your own maritime explorer! Find out why. If you're going to be releasing anything in order to swim towards desire, first find out what makes the whirlpool whirl. flow more. Still, this practice is called practice for a reason, and so there will always be tough work to do, though the work may later be reshaped. Water does that. It reshapes form as it itself is constantly changing body and form.
   If there are weights attached to your being, find out what is weighing you down; only then can you release yourself. And do not worry; after some practice, you start to grow gills, you amphibian, you. Practicing the art of asking your heart what you desire and working through the many things that tend to pressurize you against getting there to that point does make the work
     Gaze. Gaze upon your blockages, your complexes. Feel your complexes floating amidst your desire, your desire surrounding it and under it, perhaps even within it. Do the healing work that is needed. If there is blockage, something may have hardened, rusted, or crusted when it should have not.  Healing is the shaper of rock and pearl, and the dissolver of minerals and molecules. Swirl widdershins, like a whirlpool, dissolving, breaking down parts, dispelling into simplicity, simplicity later coming back together to the greater whole, nourished and helpful to your cause, the cause of your heart's desire. Drink down your heart's desire.
     And please, when the tides get too rough to handle or the surface of the water too murky or dark for your seeking heart too see, meet it head-on with compassion. Watch as the rains of ease fall in.

Pour the water of compassion upon the heart.
Watch it unfold, no longer hidden.
What do you see?